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Born Anxious is a homegrown clothing label with two objectives, to make the clothes as comfortable as possible, whilst also remaining planet friendly, and to hold important information that will aim to help not only the child, but also the caregiver as well when required. As an autism mum myself, I have thought about what could help me and other caregivers whilst trying to be as generic as possible within the designs, alongside giving those the opportunity to personalise their products as well.


Social media so good and so bad

Social media so good and so bad

I use social media to network and for support  I share oscars firsts on there people you don’t see often that live overseas, don’t seem as far away it’s good like that , however you forget it chucks memory’s back like happy Monday here’s a picture of your dead dog😑 , your welcome 😂oh and only you can see this preview , oh ok thanks there my memories but I don’t maybe want to see some of them!   

or someone shares a memory but forgets it’s not a good one for you , they don’t do it on purpose but still it hurts💙 but I suppose that’s the game you play isn’t it by being active on social media your playing roulette with emotion , most people aren’t as sensitive I suppose, it’s only those parents that learn to live with broken hearts and the acceptance  that broken is ok , we make it work 🌟

so the week I have had could be a sick tv drama to be honest,  sick bug for two days then Malcom in the middle gets assaulted at school! Then I get the worlds worst cold whilst trying to have telephone meetings with professionals whilst sounding like one of the muppets  , we finally get Oscar back in school for a day and I attempt to complete the list I have made for  born anxious website   And wham oscars bums broken ! Wave two of this bug so sent home from school his school week has consisted off happy Monday and five minutes on Friday , he’s reverted back to trapping me in the room by blocking the doorway he doesn’t want me ,if  I join in play he smacks me , he just wants me in the room and today he’s watched peppa pig movie 4 times! 4 times! I’m not too well so I made myself enjoy it! 

So today we’re home from school after a 50 minute round trip and I sneak in my phone , the five year old room guard  isn’t looking and I try and do some networking online , I’m not caught so I get confident , I go on Facebook and I get a memory and I really don’t need it today , it’s a photo of Oscar looking up at me and back then everything had so much promise, I wasn’t being held prisoner watching peppa pig !

plus I think now looking back, did he look a bit vacant as to me at the time I didn’t think so but now I can kind of ,see a look in him I now know what it is! 💙 

He was shiny new ,and we were planning Adventures  ,and I just felt a bit robbed for a minute , my pity party didn’t last long enough to erect any bunting , but just for a second it got me ,i once felt with him how I did with my other two, free, I took it all for granted ,I just assumed he was low need, a regular kid back then was so easy and I still found things to complain about , parenting was so easy before , it’s not impossible now we find our way, but I wish I had enjoyed it more before the freedom of it .

so cheers Facebook next time you find something lose it again, I will find my own memories  , I’m not ungrateful for now it just reminded me how ungrateful I was back then 💙

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Engraved in my heart forever  

Eating disorder

Eating disorder

Unpredictable yet amazing

Unpredictable yet amazing

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