Schools officially out i wonder what the next two weeks will bring
Currently Ive been placed in the corner to watch him organise his wooden puzzles, I’m not allowed out of the room or to move, talk or join in! So I’m sitting here blogging waiting until he’s so engrossed he wont notice , occasionally I have to back out of a room very slowly one step at a time, as if you just walk away he charges you like a small rino and takes your legs out on purpose , he’s got a real thing about us being here on our own it’s too intense , and I may be wrong but I don’t think he’s a fan of people walking away either😂, some would say’ well at least he wants you therethe other day you were moaning he doesn’t wAnt you’, which is true, however there is a huge list of small jobs I could be getting on with and he doesn’t want me to join him , he wants me to just sit here !!!
Schools out from 1230 today and my parents have organised winter wonderland dayout for all the grandkids, I’m slightly nervous about this , Brendan’s at work and I’m just praying the world and his wife aren’t there, as even if people say they will help the anxiety about whether he will enjoy it , whether he will ruins it for others , whether he will scream and headbang, self harm and just basically be like he is currently at home but out in the cold!!!! ,The thought of the effort to find out makes me want to bail , but my 11 year old will not be missing out on fun today, he’s excited and he misses out far too often , it just can’t be helped sometimes if Autism is getting the better of us , he understands and we do make up for things , Autism siblings get a really tough deal in many ways they also are carers .
So we arrive all wrapped up sweating as it’s not even cold ,and it’s closed!however there was the arcade open there and a giant snow globe and we took a walk along the seafront and it was just enough, Oscar enjoyed it and the older kids got to go into the very attractive looking arcades on Margate seafront , it wasn’t a complete fail they got to spend time with grandparents and did enjoy the arcades so win/ win🎉
I may have been slightly overconfident allowing my two boys to go inside a giant snow globe together, there are strict rules to which Oscar followed none!😂don’t throw too much snow on the fan ! Dude he’s laying on it! Oscar enjoyed it it’s tiny bits of paper that snow on you, but we did have an issue getting him out!!!lorcan came out first a highly trained snow globe professional is by the door saying unzip it quick, get out quick or it deflates , one child out the other puts one foot out but gets a second wind goes back in, by this point it’s going down a lot!!!! the lady is kind of panicking but also not really doing anything! Just saying it’s going down so I said zip it back up for a minute it’s going flat still, she’s literally sloth speed , I just said unzip it I will go in and get him, sounds simple right?wrong he goes dead Weight I had to drag him he’s screaming with the suction it’s stuck all over his face and hair and went in my eye! It wasn’t our finest hour, I managed to get him back into the buggy and tried to get as much of the fake snow off him that I could , he really enjoyed it but he did get very upset at the sudden end if the fun, the other thing he enjoyed was the giant strength testing hammer , thank Christ it was on a rope!
So for the next few weeks we will be trying everything even if we only do half , planning means anxiety do I think we shall just go with the flow , I think that’s how memory’s are going to be made , wing it for a bit see how we do💙🌈
Before it got ugly
This hammer would have been coming home with us if it wasn’t nailed down!