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Born Anxious is a homegrown clothing label with two objectives, to make the clothes as comfortable as possible, whilst also remaining planet friendly, and to hold important information that will aim to help not only the child, but also the caregiver as well when required. As an autism mum myself, I have thought about what could help me and other caregivers whilst trying to be as generic as possible within the designs, alongside giving those the opportunity to personalise their products as well.


Anyone else had a (stop the ride I want to get off moment)😶

Anyone else had a (stop the ride I want to get off moment)😶

Friday morning I woke with the  feeling the world was on my shoulders couldn’t put my finger on it , usually were up and in good sprints and ready to leave by 8 am .

And let’s face it , even the waltons had an odd off day , we’re the same sometimes Oscar refuses to get dressed , some days he refuses to be taken out of his cot and will attack me , my middle child remembers a 19 part homework that’s due today! but Friday he woke happy , got dressed fine, took his meds fine , ate his breakfast fine and we were more than ready to leave, everyone was happy , but something was bugging me I couldn’t shake it off , and it feels like it happened to someone else now, but I had a meltdown ! STOP! STOP THE RIDE I WANT TO GET OFF! it was a scary moment it took over , I just felt I could run away  and not care , I suddenly felt overwhelmed with the responsibility on me as an Autism mum, a mum a wife,and then I thought of the days were I’m on my knees, but  I find the strength to carry on ,but today no issues, you wouldn’t even know we had an Autism child who rules in the house!!!!!but yet I felt invisible  !!! invisible to my other two kids,Invisible to my husband, so many things I do are so hard but it’s me ,just me and in that moment, it felt as if , although I’m needed they don’t see me!  

In truth that isn’t right at all , as my family  cherish me, I know that and I don’t normally feel separated from my family, but on this morning I did! I’ve blogged before about how amazing my other children are and they really are .

Once it was out ,and it was a real diva strop a few tears some unaudiable  talk crying , I was ok , I spent the day texting my kids making sure they were ok as , there’s one thing I’m mindful to never do ,and that’s besto the worry of an adult on a Childs shoulders ,but this one time, they saw me , I made them, and although it upset them, I’m kind of glad as it’s an important lesson to learn I think, in life that mums are human they do have a limit  , all was well by the start of school and in truth I think we all needed it , it reminded them that I might be thick skinned but I’m not superhuman . 

Ive  been trying to put my finger on the catylist and I’ve come to this conclusion , pent up deep routed stress , we had a very short week due to oscars two days at home following a seizure, the routine was out of sync , we gave unspoken worry about oscars upcoming scan which has built up ,and I’ve let myself get a bit run down , which is a good reminder for me to not paper over the cracks and fake happiness .  

I think we all need that every now and again , that stop I’m not ok limit ,it brings truth , we are  such a busy family with three kids ,all at different stages , and we juggle a lot and I think Friday is  a good talking point for being more mindful of each other , if you care about each other , then look after each other’s  feelings . 

Just another lesson for us all as part of an Autism family  , which will make us stronger if we are honest about our feelings Supporting the cause is one thing but supporting each other is everything 🏷💙💙💙🌈

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You can’t pour from an empty cup

You can’t pour from an empty cup

I do have to wonder how all this is going to pan out? 😶

I do have to wonder how all this is going to pan out? 😶

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