Weirdly enough we need the bad days!
It started last night as I got into bed I can hear laughing hysterically laughing, belly gripping I’m can’t breath laughing ! It was oscar in his sleep it lasted until 2 am when he got up in his cot and read himself a couple of books extremely loudly with his lights in , he then sang himself a couple of songs and drifted back off I was in and out of intermittent sleep as I was so tired after a 5 am start , what caused him to do this!!! This kid sleeps usually , he had three years of sleep meds but he’s been 6 weeks clear and sleeping all night , only thing I have to say is , it better be a one off I can’t do day and night it is hard , I can manage if I get sleep , I’ve been spoilt for sleep I can’t cope if he’s going to stop sleeping no way .😶😶😶
I was hopefully he would wake happy as he usually does , it’s only when the day starts to unfold that he gets anxious and how he gets dressed is usually an indication of how the day will go, some days we don’t make it out of PJS! It’s too upsetting for him you need to get the timing right , let the meds kick in then do it while preoccupied!( sounds far fetched but I need my eyes! I like them😂)
Today he dressed ok 😶fought a bit ,but I was quick so you can imagine I was pretty confident about the day 😊which was good as I had a few jobs to run , but his medication didn’t work today! 😶He started to run and crash into the furniture everything’s upsetting him , he’s refusing food and obsessed on one thing !!!!my phone and he won’t stop asking for it , it’s going to be a looonnngggg day but needs must, so it takes two hours before he cooperates for shoes and we head our first stop, I park outside run in , leaving him with 12 year old brother I can see him he is on someone’s driveway ,I can touch my car he’s that close he’s crying very upset, but I’m ten seconds!
Its a very stressful and makes me wonder why I didn’t just stay at home!
I then need to run into the supermarket to get bread, as he only likes one make!! Determined not to be house prisoner we brace the supermarket in and out 30 seconds then I get to the till and because it’s easter in 5 days,, the lady in front of me is buying the entire fruit and veg isle!!
So that’s that and we head home , just calmed Oscar down-and a reporter calls me from our local paper!!!🌟🎉 wanting to run a story on Born Anxious this week which is amazing news ,but Oscar cried through the interview !!which was a good and a bad thing I suppose , at least it proves that I do have struggles that I speak off ,through my clothing range! It’s just a shame I couldn’t hear the reporter!!!😂I have no idea how the article will look or how I will come across , it could say, I interviewed the owner of Born Anxious and she shouted at me ,and her kids were screaming , she’s a terrible mother😂 or, our photographer was attacked by a feral child who was literally charging at him! Which would all ring true, one things certain Oscar displayed some very antisocial behaviour to the photographer, but I was kind of glad as it proved my point as to why I started Born Anxious .🌟🌟
one things for sure I think I need these days !!!!!!!as I’m famous for getting overconfident if we’re having a good spell, this is also proof it’s all still there under the surface! and helps me to reflect when I struggle with medicating him , we need the bad days to appreciate the good 🌟