We haven’t come this far ,to just be ok
My slogan is I’m winging it, but really I want to be winning it, yes I know ,part of any Childs development if they have special needs can be unknown because they can have delays in development , but when you struggle to meet most targets ,it starts to get you down , I want it all ,yes that’s right I do, why not? , I want a target met just one , I mean a biggy , I need that energy for the next phase, his first year of school is almost over and surprise surprise our targets haven’t moved much , and that’s ok but I need a new energy .
Its so easy to look back with the mum guilt and think, why didn’t I push that a bit more or Change my strategy there , that’s over thinking about the future and targets for you I know lots of other SEN parents also guilty of this 🌈🌈🌈
I’m not taking anything away from Oscar he has for him made excellent progress this year with the difficulties he faces , his Autism , his anxiety , and epilepsy ,I’m pretty sure places him in the complex category😶 although know ones actually ever said what level they feel he is at , I think it’s too early to say I think he’s still climbing he’s riding slowly 👍,his school really have set achievable targets for him and he is slowly improving ,but as his mum I have short term targets and longer term ones .
So currently his short term targets are on track the longer term ones, at points if I’m honest feel a million miles away ,and are not measured by any means , I do want to be that mum that can say ‘Oscar used to only drink from a bottle’ or tell a story about how I successfully made a transition for him like the toilet ,or Big boy bed ,all the things I had the beauty of taking for granted with my other children ,in short I want to be that mum that can say how far he has come in real measure, and have real big wow moments and show off about it😂 , I think we will🥇 looking back he has come so very very far ,and maybe I’m being greedy but ........
I want to be that mum ,that can reflect on her difficulties with fondness ,as she now has calmer days, I want to be that mum , that’s mum goals 🤘
In Autism, most progressions I find, is met by a new challenge, but looking back we do celebrate the small things🌟🌈,I hope we never stop that , I’m really really proud of oscar and grateful for all the support we have and the input that people supply , but as his mum I think it’s ok to say I didn’t come all this way just to be ok , I want to be more than ok in the end , I want to look back and think , yes that was hard but I’m glad I didn’t give up it’s my fuel💙
I was allowed near him so I inhaled him a bit💙anyone else do that?